i'm off!

like a young bride's panties.

my heart is pounding through my chest and i am pretty confident my brain has not stopped in days. i'm crying one moment and smiling like an idiot the next.

my to-do lists get crossed off, re-written, checked once, twice and then again for good luck...but they never seem to end. and just when i think there isn't another thing i need to buy from {michael's}, i'm back in the parking lot cursing myself.

i have to remind myself to eat and sleep. remind myself to stop looking at the {weather network} because they don't know what they are talking about anyways. remind myself to be nice to those who are helping me most and take it all in. however i haven't needed to remind myself how excited i am....funny that.

tomorrow is an indulgent day at the nail salon and packing my bags for my friday night slumber party and then the wedding day itself in {niagara on the lake}. i'm also popping over to my nonna's neighbours to cut fresh blush pink peonies for my rehearsal dinner and petal cones. i'm spoiled, i know. i have the boys in my life running all over hell's half acres tomorrow, but at this point, i need to delegate that for the sake of my sanity. and everyone else's.

people keep asking me "do you feel like you're in a dream right now"....and a very big part of that is true. as much work and stress as this has all been, i have never been happier in my whole life. i have everyone i care for surrounding me with unconditional love, help and support--and i don't know that there is anything more i could want then that.

oh. and i get to marry paulie. i get to be his wife. his go-to girl. his friend. his rock. his old lady. have i mentioned i just may be the luckiest girl in the world?

i have loved every moment of planning my wedding. it has turned into the most extraordinary thing i have ever done, and will always be a time in my life that i look back on and long for. i have loved all the kind words and friends that have come from sharing this journey as an online journal, and have never once wanted to stop writing, stop creating or stop sharing. thank you for reading along and letting me know you have enjoyed it too. it has meant the whole wide world to me.

farewell....or ariva derchi as they say in italy ;)

always with love,
'acowleyVERYsoontobe'
amanda
xoxo