cutie0162's Pink wedding

So last night was awful!!!! My mother and I got into a HUGE fight. It all started because she has been wanting to over the food list with me again before she calls our "cater". Well she hands me a list and she has add so many new things in. Which some of you are prob. thinking that is great but its not great trust me. We are on a tight budget and my mom keeps telling me we can't afford this and that but she wants to spend money on more food? It just REALLY ticked me off!!!

Then she starts saying that there is nothing there that she would eat. So the wedding is back to being about her now. Which im just SICK OF! so it got me upset and I started yelling and she is yelling. In the yelling match I asked her wouldnt she rather help me out with invitations than rather spend more money on food we don't need? Of coarse not! My brother had to come break us up because it got out of hand.

I feel really bad but I want this wedding to me about me and Jason (FH). I feel like she is making everything around her and what she wants (which is how my mother is which I knew getting into this). We just have a hard time getting along. She keeps saying "wells its my money, Im paying for it" Ya you are but doesnt she want me to be happy? Doesnt she want me to love my wedding?

I just feel so bad. My mother is really stressing me out. She just seems to only want to help out if it favors her! Oh and before you say I need to talk to her about it....TRUST ME that is IMPOSSIBLE. My mother wants this GREAT relationship between but its hard. She is controlling and obsessed with me. When we do talk she only hears what she wants to hear. Because of our fight last night she said I don't love her and blah blah blah. Im sick of her acting like a 5 year old. My 6 year old daughter even tells her "its my mommys wedding".

Sorry for all the rabbling. I dont even know if it makes sense! Im just stressed and sad at the moment. Plus my FH is not hear to comfort me :(