Crazy dream

Super scary moment...

I woke this morning to super crazy light socket hair so it was no surprise to me that I had a really frightening dream last night. I didn't think much about it UNTIL my mom called this morning to tell me that she had a dream that she went to my wedding and all of the decorations and the dress and everything was what I wanted but the bride was Fiance's MOTHER!!! I freaked out as soon as she told me that. I had the same sort of dream!

My dream was alittle more intense though. While hers was all of my details mine was me sitting in a room off location getting ready and crying to myself b/c my short hair wouldn't cooperate and I was complaining to my mom saying, "I told you not to go cheap!" I was upset b/c my mom said it was too expensive to hire someone to help me with my makeup and hair. Although everyday of my life I have been able to manage my hair for some reason on the most important it wouldn't work and nothing was right. I had on a T-shirt instead of a button down and all. Then the dream would switch to the bridesmaid. It would show all these girls I had never met before in yellow and green striped tutu type dresses with knit armwarmers and knit bows and flowers on the dresses. Some were in yellow and green others were in my colors of pink and navy. I suddenly realized during the lineup to walk down the aisle that my fiance's mom who was supposed to be helping me with everything had somehow made the wedding into hers and I had to just squeeze my girls in their fancy dresses into line with these girls in this ridiculous get up. All while SMIL was smiling and so excited. Saying to me, didn't I do a great job of giving you what you want. In the end, I started crying saying noone is listening to me. It's all about everyone else and never about me and called the whole thing off.

Weirdest dream ever!! My mom was shocked to hear that we both had the same type of dream in the same night. On top of that, last night I got into it with my MOH who hasn't done d!*k to help me out. She is by far the most selfish person I have ever met and I just dont know that I can even be around her right now. If I cut her out this will be the 2nd BF for me to go through this with while being engaged. I dont know what is going on right now with this wedding but I have to say Im not enjoying the process at all right now. It is truly sad that people cannot allow my fiance' and I to enjoy 1 day without it being about them.