This is gabadena's Blue Wedding!

this was my babys 1st xmas he is he made 3 months on the 11th. we had a really nice day. we woke up opened gifts he got your baby can read, a leap frog dog thas spells his name, a fisher price dog that teaches the alphabet, body parts, colors and it counts. he got a winnie the pooh rocker he cant use until he's 1 and sum giraffe thing he cant play with til he is about 9 months. he got bath tub toys, clothes, and some other lil stuff. we went by my boyfriends family for about 30 minutes then us all my siblings my mom and her boyfriend all headed to new orleans so i could see my dad and his family last time i was down there was last xmas. my dad hadnt seen bj since he was born ad the rest of my ppl had never seen him so they were excited to see the new addition. I had a great time. we spent the day eating and chatting my boyfriend and dad played dominos . before we left my dad gave me and my lil sister each a $400.00 check $300 for me $100 for bj. $400 for my lil sista for xmas and her birthday. needless to say that was probably my favorite xmas gift.

ima talk to my boyfriend about it first but, im a bit of a hoochie on the slick and ive been wanting to get a stripper pole and take classes for the longest time, but i never saw any classes out here. so i decided to look online again and they have a place in new orleans that does. i just had a baby 2 months ago and i gained 45 lbs during my pregnancy so i have baby weight plus weight that i didnt even want to begin with. im 192lbs now so i figure if i dorp down to 160lbs my pre pregnancy weight i should reward myself with a stripper pole and a six week class. and if i drop down to 135 my goal weight i should be rewarded with another 6 week class and some cute little stripper outfits to go with my pole.

this how i want their hair to be. this is also my godsister she will be my matron of honor

i had been all over the place regarding how i want my centerpieces but i think i finally figured it out. i basically want them like pic number 2 i want big blue pomander balls on top of 20" cylinder vases (u think thats tall enough?) i love the idea of a tiny pomander ball dangling from the crystal garland inside the vase in pic 1. the vases are 4.5 and 5 inches insides im gonna get some 1' styrofoam balls and once i add the flowers the pomander should be just small enough to fit (hopefully),. but if not i'll justdo the single rose with pearls surrounding it like picture 2. picture 3 will be my brides maid fans, but it will have a few more flowers which will be blue my female guest will have plain white fans and picture 4 is how i want my bouquet but i want my flowers to be white and i want 2 fans like the one in picture 5 (one on each side of the flowers.) the only problem is that they only have 2 left and by the time im able to get them they may be gone. but he is how i intend to make it all happen.
$341.74 13 10" inch styrofoam balls
$ 2.59 16 1" styrofoam balls
$12.99 1 20" cylinder vase
$23.00 (2) 12pk. 4" styrofoam balls
$9.00 2pks of large green leaves
$323.73 2,174 flowers (27 bundles of which 1 is white)
$15.68 8 stands of pearl garland (192 yards)
$11.98 2pks of babys breath
$98.40 2 cases of 5"x20" 6pk cylinder vases
$35.98 2 rolls of crystal garland (198 feet)


my grand total for all floral decor is $974.69..... is that to much to say im doing it all myself???

i was just tinking about how me and my boyfriend met because i want to make a how we met stand and have it at our reception becuse not many people know the story. everytime i think about it it makes me think that we were meant to be. i guess it started when he saw me on blackplanet which is a lil chat website and i dont really remember it but he says he wrote me a message filled with lil song lyrics from here and there but i didnt respond. eventually he sent me anotha lil message and i told him i was seeing someone. he said after that he would message me every now and again and i would respond but i didnt seem to interested so eventually he stopped. a few months later he moved back down here and he would go on my profile and look at my pictures and just wish that he could meet me. even his sister told me that he would show her my profile. so anyway one night my bestfriend jade and i decided to rent a hotel room because she had moved in with her people and i live with my mom and we just wanted to get away. while we were at the hotel she was playin on the partyline which is like a telephone chat. something i havent done since i was 16. the thing about the partyline is that u dont know who ur talking to and if ur like me u use a fake name. i came up with this bright idea that we wud each meet someone on there and invite them over. i only chatted with one person i gave him my number so he could send me his picture. he was cute so i called him and he was leaving go get something to eat so i invited him over. he says when i opened the door he was trying not to smile all he could think was that this was the girl from the computer that he had been dying to meet. and altho he knew who i was i had no clue who he was .we sat there the whole night talking getting to kno eachother and playing uno. a few days later he told me he had tried to talk to me previously. and i just think its so crazy that he tried to talk to me on blackplanet and it didnt work but on something where u have no clue at all who ur talking to out of everybody on there he was the one i chose. how did you and your fh meet???

hey just thought i wud update u guys on my situation. we talked about everything, from what happend to what we should do etc. we decided to try work it out. it took me a little while to forgive him, but i did and everything is fine now. his mom was asking me the other day about the wedding planning, and we're not engaged yet so i never told her anything but she said he had been goin on and on about it as well as the other plans we've made. such as when january comes we're gonna get my car fixed (i need a new engine). also we need to get into our own place, we were gonna buy his aunts trailer but she sold it already, and i would rather be paying to own somethin than to be paying for something that will never be mine. so the plan for that is to put down on a newer trailer which would be a lot less expensive than buying a house and it makes more since than renting an apartment. once my baby makes one i will be going back to school, im not sure what i want to go for yet, i graduated highschool with a cna license but i never was interested enough to persue it. altough being an obgyn or an rn would be nice. thas alot of years of school my other choices are going back to school for hair and opening a salon. i also like working with little kids and planning things so yeah im confused about what i want to do but i do have 10 months to figure it out. but once im done with school and we pay off the trailer we're gonna work on building a house. and once thas done we will just rent the trailer for extra income. plus the house and back apartment that my dad will be leaving me one day but hopefully no time soon

ok well ima start from a lil while back about a week or 2 ago i decided to go on this lil website called blackplanet to see if my boyfriend still had his page. right after we started dating he told me had deleted it but i had been seeing it in the web browser. i know my little sisters dont know anything about bp so i decided to investigate and sure enuf he had created anotha page in april so i got upset because in the beginnig he claimed the reason he deleted it was because he found wht he was looking for. now if it was myspace or facebook i wouldnt care because they do have some purpose, playing games reconnecting with old classmates etc. but bp is strictly for chatting and meeting people. so we got into an arguement about it. my boyfriend leaves and i dont really ask where hes going. theres been times where he gets dressed to go for a ride at 10 oclock at night.so i asked him if he was goin meet chicks when he leaves the house because just cause u say u going by ur ppl doesnt mean u are. he said no and then he wanted to leave talking about i dont trust him he cant believe i wud think that, basically making me feel bad.i asked was he conversating with any females, he said no. he deleted his page and the only reason he had it was so ppl could see him notfor him to look at them. i ended up apologizing just wanting the arguement to be over. now fast foward to yesterday morning while i was feeding the baby. something told me to search through his phone. i went to his messages there were messages to 2 females, one a bitch he met online those messages didnt really go anywhere they didnt talk very long at all. and the other bitch his ex girlfriend. she sending pics of her ass he sent one of his dick. she talkin about how much she miss it and he talkin about dont give his ass to nobody and how she can be his girl after that i stopped reading. needless to say my heart sank i was so upset i was shaking. im crying now typing this. i woke him up and confronted him about it. he says it didnt go any farther than that but how am i supposed to know that he lied to me in the beginning about talking to anyone and about being on bp talking to ppl. he told me he knows he was wrong, hes sorry, etc. etc. he wanted to leave once again talking about giving me space like that solves anything. then he was sayin how i dont trust him cause i felt the need to go thru his phone which has made him not trust me or whatever. i love him with everything in me and i cudnt see myself without him so i sat there for about 30 minutes asking questions and debating on what to do. i made him promise to never do anything like that again i told him to delete all the messages pictures and numbers, and when we go pay the phone bill hes getting his number changed. as far as rebuilding trust i dont know how so i decided we would start over on a clean slate. he started to cry something i have never seen him do. i asked y he said it was because he knows he hurt me he couldnt even look at me. im trying to let it go and start over, we've been getting along good but im honestly still hurt. what can i do to get over it?

the fist pic is of me with red and black puffy screws and grey contacts. pictures 339 330 326 and 311 are of me with a number 30 lace wig which is kind of a redish brown. pix 215, 213, 211, 185, and 1 are of me with and toned lace wig 8 on top (some kinda blonde) 4 in the middle (a med brown) and 2 at the bottom (darker brown). pix 192 and 69 are brown tracks. pix 36, and 37 are black tracks and the last one is a mixture of brown and blonde tracks

the1st pic is how i want mine. except i want my fan to have some type of detail on it to match my dress and i want my flowers to be white. the second pic is kinda how i any my bridal party's to be and the guest will just have plain fans

slip to make my dress all fluffy