halibride's Green wedding

Tomorrow my future sister-in-law and I are hitting up some bridal boutiques for a few trial try-ons. I have 1 year and 11 months until our wedding, so I'm not even close to ready to buy the dress, but tomorrow will help me get an idea what I like, and also if I'm comfortable walking down the isle at my current size.

For the past two years I've been struggling with my weight....it seemed like overnight I blew up from my 135-145 zone to 155-165 zone. I know it's only about 20 lbs but it made a big difference on my 5'7 frame.

I have tried the exercise strategy again and again, and I've lost about 10 lbs at those points. But then, I fall off the wagon and start eating junk food and making excuses to stay home from the gym. And then, of course, the pounds come running back to join the rest of their friends on my stomach, hips and thighs.

About half of the time I'm fairly comfortable with it, because if I dress myself appropriately in well structured clothes, it's hard to tell I'm overweight at all. But, I don't really want to feel bad about myself on my wedding day or when I'm looking at my pictures. At the same time, I don't want to unnecessarily diet and be miserable if I don't have to.

So tomorrow, when I try on dresses, I'll be looking for things like squished up back fat and fat-looking arms. If I don't hate what I see, then I won't be so worried about losing weight before I start dress shopping next year.

Does this make sense to you girls (especially if you're struggling with the battle of the bulge like I am) or am I just being crazy?

Oh...and a small part of me just wants to try on the pretty dresses....hehe.