This is heavanlee's Pink Wedding!

I have always know that my mother would be my matron-of-honor. However, when we got engaged I decided that my future-sister-in-law would also be my matron-of-honor. We are so close and I knew she would be a huge help because no one was more excited than her when Blake and I got engaged. She was pregnant but certain that there would be nothing holding her back from being involved.

She now is barely involved in the wedding plans at all. She loaned me her wedding planner book for ideas and has offered a few suggestions, but other than that she seems to busy or distracted to help. Another girl that we go to church with that I asked to be a BM is super helpful. At the time we were only kind-of close, but now we email at least once a day and I spend days at her house about once a week. Granted, I spend more time with Holly (FSIL) but Holly never wants to work on the wedding. I know the wedding is a year away and her baby is due in a month, but I go out of my way to help her plan for this baby, clean and organize the nursery, buy her things, put furniture together, and every other detail that needs to be taken care of regarding a baby. The only time she seemed interested in the wedding after the first few weeks was when Carrie (the other friend) offered to help and she got jealous. So she asked me to email her with questions and pictures like I do Carrie, but when I did she never emailed me back... just would say a week later, "Oh, I got those emails..." and that was it. No comments or opinions. Carrie has been looking up recipes and venues for the bridal shower, coming up with themes and games and decorations. She sends me pictures and emails with ideas and has offered to go shopping whenever and wherever I want. The other day when we were at her house planning, she asked if I had picked a MOH yet. The thing is, I have. I picked my mom and Holly and now I just don't know. Blake says make Carrie the second MOH. Why does it have to be complicated?? I love both these girls and my hopes are that after Holly's baby comes and she is out of work for a while and has time, she will want to help more. I am so excited about every little thing that happens with her pregnancy, from the first moment she found out to the kicking and the pictures and buying maternity clothes... scouring outlets for hours until we finally found a khaki maternity skirt she could wear to church, putting together jumpers and cribs and changing tables. I so badly want her to care about my events too. I'm just not going to make a big deal about anything for a while, and wait and see if maybe once things settle down for her she has a chance to become more involved. I hope so because I miss her so much!!

So for a few months it won't matter who is MOH and who is BM. Let's just see how it pans out. But until then... Carrie is just a blessing. I wish every bride could have a BM like her!!

So this is my first post on here. I randomly came across this website while looking at cake pictures on Brides.com and thought it was a wonderful idea. I have a regular webpage (www.myspace.com/heavanlee) but no one cares to hear the ins and outs of my planning so I thought this would be a nice way to, if nothing else, get everything I'm thinking out for me to look at.

We have decided on pink and black as our main colors. Well, pink as our main color, black as an accent. Try explaining that to my fiance'. We've had more than one debate about whether there should be black on my wedding dress or as the bridesmaid dresses main color. I vote no, so that's what it will be, but the black will play a bigger role in the reception decorations.

I'm a little stressed about getting everything done. I know I have plenty of time but the things keep piling up. It would be so much easier if people were more excited to help but at this moment I have just one bridesmaid (who by the way is not one of my matrons of honor) helping out. She is wonderful. I don't know how I'd make all these decisions if she wasn't helping so much. But this is the first of many posts to come.