Venting

Last week my FMIL put a deposit down on our reception site to make sure we got the date we wanted. Everything else can wait because we wanted, or at least I thought we wanted this place on this particular date. This site has been the one thing that has stayed the same throughout the entire wedding planning process. Right now I find out she’s STILL looking at reception sites, and even requesting information on them. I don’t understand why she’s doing that. And, she and my fiancé are discussing these places as possibilities THEN talking to me about it. My fiancé was telling me that it’s cheaper and that he likes the payment plan. Ok that’s all fine but the problem with that is the price to rent the place including food is “only” $1,500 which comes out to less than $7 a person, or so I was told. That price would be great, but not possible. The website says differently so obviously I was told something wrong. AND, one of the things I really liked about our original location is we can bring in our own food which is what I was looking for because we wanted Hawaiian food. Our original location is beautiful, outdoors (which is what I wanted, I can’t say we anymore), wouldn’t need that many decorations, and is already booked but apparently she can get the money back. This new place is nothing special; it would be a last resort if anything. it’s indoors, and very dull which obviously would require more decorations than the original place.

I know I tend to over react with certain situations and I’ll probably feel like an idiot later but this is really bothering me, plus I have severe panic and anxiety, so I feel like a total bridezilla right now because I really freaked out over this. I actually feel sick right now. I hate getting so worked up over something like this, meaning not life and death.

I'm so happy that my FMIL is excited about this wedding and wanted to be included in the planning and is helping to pay for it, but this isn't the first time she's gotten too involved, which is probably part of the reason I'm getting so worked up over it. She actually used to schedule times to get together to plan and everything but I'd be the last person to know, or not even be told!. My future sister-in-law and fiancé have even told her she needs to back off, but here it is happening again. This is even causing me to have a panic attack, for those of you who gets those you understand....