Well me and FH went to our 1st counseling session at our church and I brought up the date issue. Our pastor understood both sides of the story, how I didn't mind everyone not being there and that marriage was the most important thing to me and how for FH, being family oriented, family being there was a big deal. But he also said that no matter what something can always come up, whose to say 2011 everyone will show? But he told us to pray about it. No I've been praying for the past few weeks about what to do. FH said at the session he still wanted to send out our STD's, so last night I told him it would be a waste of time and money because I know we're not getting married next year. I don't want to set myself up for failure. So this morning we talked more about it and I told him we might as well just wait because it's this big issue and there's no other way to solve it. He said that there had to be a middle ground, but there isn't. It also came up that he feels it was going too fast, well then I really don't want to get married yet if that's the case! I told him I don't want him to have any questions, doubts, or worries when are getting married. He has brought this up 3x's so now he's getting what he wanted. I'm not even excited about it anymore. I've told all my girls, mom, and grandma. All of which are upset that they can't be with me (most of them are out of town) but more so because this is my 2nd engagement and it's up in the air. I love him and I want to be with him but as of now our wedding is canceled. I've been crying all day because it hurts soooooo much but I don't know what else to do. If it's this important than that's that. I don't have it in me to argue about it anymore.
Thanks for being here to listen, sorry the post is so long. I'll keep you ladies posted!
XOXO,
MIBride080610
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