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STRESSED

I don't know where to start, I have so much Crap on my head.... at times I wish I was never a bride. I know I shouldn't say that I love my fiance so much but this wedding is so hectic. I have my Bachelorette and my fiance has is Stag this Saturday... MY maid of honor and all th other girls have done so much to p0repare for this day. My fiance Best man on the other hand has done shit all.. I have to push him to do things. and now my fiance is feeling like my stagette is going to be amazing while his will be so lame. We have been arguing about this and i can't stop saying to him that it is not my faul that he picked a best man that he couldn't count on. We have been arguing over this issue for the past few days and I'm afraid that it will trun worse. I don't kow what to do, I wish i had all the money in the world to throw the best Stag ever, I'm at the point where I feel like cancelling mine. Then I have people talking about me behind my back, I don't know if it's jealousy or what but the support that I have shown all of them I don't get none, all I get is fake suppot in front of my face, And I know people are trying to help but instead of helping they are finalizing things with out us,,, and this up sets me... This is my first and only marraige and I want it to be just what I've always want... even what my fiance wants... I'm like a time bomb waiting to explode, and I feel like if I' don't do it soon, the out come might just be bad. I always feel like crying because I keep my comments and opinions to myself just so that I don't disappoint anyone.I really don't want to show my fiance my frustration because it will lead to something big between us. I do know that planning this wedding has made me learn a lot about life, my future, and about people, and after our wedding is over, I'm going to start fresh keeping in contact with positive people who will always encourage me....AWWWWWWWWWWWWW