This is pinkbride's Pink Wedding!

I am sketching my own wedding cake design to give to the baker. These cakes are a few that have inspired me. I love all of these and I can't really decide which designs to put onto my cake! I'm so indecisive. Haha. I don't like the flowers on top of the cakes and such though.

Well, thankfully things have calmed down a little bit with the issues with my mother. However, she still says some snide little comments here and there, but I've just accepted that she will pretty much always do that. Though, I do hope that it will stop once we get married. Everyone else adores him, so I'm thankful for that. He and my brother get along and my grandparents love him and he loves all of them too.

Anyway!! On to other things....

I keep changing my mind about the bridesmaids dresses. I found some I like more than any others I have looked at so far and here they are. I just can't decide which style looks best.

And the hard part is finding shoes to match them too...without having to get dyeable shoes. I don't really want to do that, but I might have to. Also, I don't want them to have to pay $100 for wedding shoes. They'd think I'd gone crazy.

Okay, I was wondering if any of you are having this problem too:

My fiance and my mother do not get along. Well, actually, my fiance has been very nice to her, never said anything rude to her and has done a LOT for her. Yet my mother has been very mean to him and has been making things difficult on the both of us. I love her dearly and I know she's very sick. (She was in the hospital for a month when he and I started dating) She has bad stomach problems, throws up every day and faints every day. (The doctors can't really seem to find out what's wrong with her for sure, but she does have IBS)

I know she doesn't want to "lose her baby" (I am the youngest child, I only have one other sibling...my brother who is 26) She doesn't like the fact that I am basically living with him either and I know my grandparents don't agree with it either. (I am Christian and grew up in a very Christian home....but I still want to do this, I don't believe everything my family does) Every time I go there for a week or so and then come back here, she gets very upset and angry and starts insulting him. I hate that!! Today she called him a son of a bitch and then proceeded to insult his family. Whom she hasn't even met. She got mad because my grandmother told her about how I'm going to start getting to know his family and mother better since I didn't have a close relationship with my ex husband's family and we didn't get along. I don't want that to happen this time. I want them to like me and I want to like them!
She is TRYING to make me feel guilty, from all the things she said (I won't say EVERYTHING but ...it was BAD) Sometimes I do feel guilty, I don't think I should! Yet I think about how sick she is and how terrible her life is and I feel just really bad about it all.

Ugh. I don't know what to do.
It's stressing me out and now I'm getting a bit depressed again. (I'm already on Lexapro)

This should be a happy time! I wish she could just be happy for me. She even told me today she doesn't want me to marry him.

So, my FH and I are going to keep this wedding small and simple. We're only inviting his immediate family and well...actually, almost my whole family. (His is HUGE, mine is VERY small....lol)

We've both been married before and we've both done the big wedding and as much as I'd love another big elaborate wedding, we just can't afford it. We have a very small budget and have to get help from his parents and my grandparents as much as we can. (My mother is too sick and can't work, and my father died when I was 12)

The wedding will be at my grandparent's house. (It'd mean a lot to them and well...it's free...lol) I already have my dress. (From Mary's Bridal. They are the best and have the most gorgeous dresses!) I've finally decided that I want the colors to be red, orange and pink. Which may seem too loud, but it'll look great.

I know below I had posted some bridesmaid dresses, but I have finally decided that those are terrible and I picked some out from David's Bridal. I'll post up a picture of them later on.

If any of you have any ideas for decorations, food, and such for a really tight budget wedding, I'd really appreciate it! Or if you know of any websites with decent priced decorations, garters, etc.

Btw. We haven't really decided on a date for SURE. But we're hoping it will be within the next 3 or 4 months.

XoXo!

I was wondering if any of you other girls are having this problem:

I've been spending a lot more time on picking out my bridesmaids' dresses than I did on picking out my own wedding dress! This is because I know what I like, I know what will look good on me, but I have so far, 3 bridesmaids, and they all have different body types. I have fallen in love with this particular bridesmaid dress...however I'm afraid it might make a couple of them look like stuffed sausages. I know that sounds mean! I don't mean to sound like that way at all, but it's the truth! I don't know what to do.

I also can not decide on what color scheme to do. A deep orange, Medium Pink or Hot pink, and Red....or Black and different shades of pink. I'm slightly afraid the latter would make it look almost gothic or something. I don't know, what do you think??? The first one was my original choice. I even already skethed the cake with those colors.

Btw, these dresses are from Coco Myles. I LOVE her work! Absolutely gorgeous.