Wedding Budget

I dropped outta school

SORRY I'VE BEEN M.I.A

Long story short?

Now let me explain. I have 3 semesters left of college. I have no loans and no debut. The problem is, i now have no money. FHubby offered to cough up $14,000 from his life savings to get me through school debut free. However we had a better option. He is staff at my university and if he has worked there over 24 months then his dependents [wife... me] will get free tuition. This will go into effect next fall when we are married. So until then I have decided to postpone my education to do this wedding and save $14,000!

Pros:
-more time for DIY projects
- I got to move out of my dorm and in with my bff who is also engaged
- saving a heck of a lot of cash, some of which can go toward our honeymoon/wedding

Cons:
-lost my job at the university as a student worker [no longer a student]
- i need to get a new job [to pay rent]
- FMIL is offended that i didnt move in with her [rent free]
-I had to surrender the only familiar thing in my life right now

Things have been gettting territorial between the FMIL and I lately. I totally understand it, I'm sure most [if not all] women go through this. However, under the circumstances and the necessity for separation and transition, I dont think it would be best for me to move in with my future in laws [though i love them dearly] despite the economic benefit.

I dont know. It's been a hard an emotional week and I've just been feeling really down on myself. I know I'm saving my future family a lot of money by not taking out a loan or letting Justin sign away his savings, but i still feel like a loser bum for dropping out this semester. any one else have to go through this? any advice?

I'm having lunch with FMIL tomorrow and I think I'm just honestly going to tell her that I love her and getting and apartment on my own isn't personal, its just a good way to start setting boundaries. Its best to start with obvious physical separation then you can work your way down to whats emotionally healthy boundaries until you and FHubby are comfortable around his/your family. does that make sense?

I feel dehydrated and to top off all this emotional stress I have an ear infection and a bacteria infection of the nose and throat so I really just want to SCREAM. Cant any one cut me a break?! Forget putting school on hold, I feel like i just wanna put my entire life on hold! I'm sick, i feel like i have to explain my every action to everyone, and I'm just exhausted for feeling like I'm letting every one down!

Help ladies?

-Samantha