As i do some finishing touches for my big day, [like the DIY bouquet pictured left] it's hard to believe that this journey is ending! My whole journey of single-hood and trying and fighting to find the perfect partner! It is soooo bitter sweet. It's hard to think that in one week I will never being going home to california. I will only ever go there as a guest now. It's also hard to believe that i will get to wake up next to the most loving man I've ever known.
I don't think getting engaged at 19 and married by 21 was a mistake. I don't think I'm too young, or cant handle it... but being this age and making this commitment at this time in my life has a completely different set of pros and cons then it may for some of you.
Its always interesting to sit back in times like these, on the eve of a life changing event, and try--just TRY to see what the Almighty is doing as he erases, adds people, colors, moves people away, shapes me and molds me...
While things have been crazy in this last week there has also been an eerie calm to every thing I do. Last night was the first night that i had trouble sleeping and I have to say I'm pretty impressed. I thought I would have been tossing and turing every night for the past month at the thought of seating charts and cookies. And maybe I kept waking up because I realized I am restless without my love by my side. And so with only 2 more full days to go I keep anticipating so that Saturday August 4th will surely be the best day of my life :-)
Please continue to pray for me and all my traveling guests :-)
See you on the other side ladies!
Signing out
xoxo Sam
