~Our Renewals~ I STILL DO- DO I STILL Updated: I changed the outside card to ivory and fu...
I can't believe there's only 27 days left. It seems unreal. There are still so many loose ends to tie up and bumps to smooth out before the big day. Trying to make it to the wedding day is becoming a battle.
-My FH's brother, one of the groomsmen, called FH the other day and told him he may not be able to even come to the wedding. At first he said he was being called out of town for work and had to go. I was ok with that (not happy, but ok) but then I found out that that's the week before the wedding and that he might not come because his wife wants him to attend someone else's wedding. FH will be heartbroken if his own brother doesn't come to his wedding, and I'm praying this doesn't happen to him.
-I rarely speak to one of my bridesmaids - I kind of regret my decision to make her a BM, but we used to be best friends and I thought I could count on her. Instead, she flat out told me that she hadn't been helping me because her other friend is getting married a few weeks after me, and she asked her to be in that wedding a week after I did, and has been pouring all her energy into that one. I don't mind her being in the other wedding, but it bothers me that she acts like mine is unimportant.
-We are still looking for a place to live and FH is still looking for a job.
My current job will not be enough to support us both. FH is a mining engineer and has had a heck of a time because the mining industry is dragging right now. I am a little upset because we had filled out an application for a beautiful little condo we both loved, only to find out that after being approved by all the other necessary people, the owner's daughter got upset because she wanted her friend to get the condo instead. So, our application got thrown out, and the friend got the condo without doing any of the work.
-At this point, I'm just worried that a few certain people are either going to intentionally or unintentionally try to ruin our wedding day. If it happens, it will be dealt with and FH will not tolerate it after what I've put into planning, but come on - it's a wedding, disrespectfulness from loved ones shouldn't be happening at all.
-on top of it all, I am making myself so sick from all the stress. I have a stomach disease that can be made worse if stressed, and it's going crazy! I have tried to relax, but the second I do, something else pops up that needs to be taken care of.
After I get off work, FH is coming over to help me with some wedding projects, which I really appreciate. He is the one thing that has kept me going through all of this. I am trying to remember that at the end of it all, what matters is that I am marrying the love of my life.