Why do I do this to myself?

I hate doctor visits!!!

Ok..so I just made an appointment with a new OB/GYN. I am terrified to go! What is wrong with me? This is why we have insurance, right? Even more so that that...I am a child of God. There is NOTHING I should be afraid of...where is my faith? I am always the one telling others they need to believe and I can not even do it for myself!

I have been watching all these Dr. OZ shows and looking up so much on the internet regarding breast cancer, this cancer that cancer and I think I have drove myself crazy. I am going to the doctor because I feel one armpit is a little larger than the other. My mother tells me it is just fat! LOL...but I want to get it checked out. My former OB/GYN told me that around a woman's cycle, the lymph nodes in that area will swell, which is normal. I think I just want absoulute comfort in knowing.

I just had to get this off my chest....I know I know better...I know who is the healer and I know all things are possible to those who BELIEVE!!

Lord, help my BELIEF!!!!